Spiritual Path ~ The Awakening...(Part 1)
If you have read my first blog, about the beginning of my spiritual path, then you will know that I have been on this path for quite a while, but mostly only sporadically throughout my life, and nothing too serious. It actually wasn't until about a little over a year ago, that I felt the stirring within... The beginning of what would become a full-blown awakening was about to take over my life - I had no idea at the time what I was getting myself into, and how drastically (but, wonderfully) my life would transform.
I have been a school teacher for the past 10 years of my life, and everything leading up to my career as a high school teacher had been planned to be just that. I followed my intuition from a young age, just knowing that being a teacher was who I was, and who I wanted to be, and so it is what I became! I loved children and babies from a young age, it felt very natural, and I always felt children were attracted to me, or that I could bond so easily with them.
I went from wanting to be an elementary teacher, to realizing in High School that I really wanted to work with older children because I felt I could relate better to them, and I could guide them in a way that I felt I was guided at that age by some wonderful teachers. I really loved working with students, and always seemed to manifest such wonderful teaching jobs, and schools to teach at.
Somehow along the way though it really became more of a routine and a job, then a real passion. For a long time, even before I began teaching I knew that there was more for me to do with my life, but I wasn't quite sure what it was, and I didn't really pursue it at the time. (Although, I remember buying, reading, and borrowing (from my Mom) many spiritual and metaphysical books)
Life took over-marriage, and three children later I felt a bit stuck with where my life was heading, and not feeling fulfilled in my teaching job anymore. I was put into situations at work where I had to teach subjects in which I was not comfortable or knowledgeable about, and felt a bit unhappy. I knew there was something else that I could possibly do, but what? And, how? Things kind of went on that way for awhile, as there was not much time to think about it with an infant and two young children.
A close friend of mine from High School was going through her own healing journey, and started to post about it on facebook. Eventually that healing journey turned into a spiritual one, and she had opened up her psychic abilities through her healing and transformation. She offered free readings, as she was just starting out, and I decided to meet with her. (I was already very open to seeing a psychic- although I have never really seen one on my own before besides my Mom taking me to one in Sedona, and receiving one phone reading the year before. My Mom would consult with psychics a lot from the time I was a young girl, and pass on the messages to us most of the time).
Besides being very open to receiving the information from a reading, I was also very aware of my free will. I went into it being very open, and knowing that what information she tells me is like a map, with many paths and choices. I know that because of my free will I can choose to go down whichever path I would like, hopefully choosing the one that will serve my highest good, but also knowing that with each action I take good, or bad will give me an experience to learn, grow and expand, and that everything I experience happens for a reason. So, I went in and didn't really take anything too seriously. She told me a bit about my children, my love life, cleared my chakras, talked to me a bit about what she saw me doing besides teaching, told me I was psychic. Oh, yes, she told me I was psychic during our first reading! But, I didn't really take it seriously, at all, honestly I was more concerned about some of the situations my children were going through, and my career. So, I left the reading feeling good, I got some really good insights, and was able to see some of those paths that were open to me.
Again, I went along with daily life for another 6 months before she contacted me. She was developing her abilities further, and was now also working with healing, and wanted me to come in to see if she could work on my children for their allergies. In this second session, she again told me, "you're psychic, you know?" Yet again, it didn't phase me, I was more interested in what the heck I was going to do besides be a school teacher, lol!! Little did I know, that by bringing up all of these questions, and feeling the way I was feeling was spurring an awakening. I was being nudged to "wake up."
My angels and guides, just about had it with trying to get my attention, and everything started to move REALLY fast!! I REALLY started to think about what I could do besides teach to feel more fulfilled, and how I could help people on a different level with something I was good at, and enjoyed. For some reason it hit me that I would love to help families, and especially Mom's through labor and delivery - as a Doula. I had three children of my own, one born with an epidural, and the other two naturally with no drugs. I loved the idea, especially since I went to college for a degree in Secondary Education, specializing in family and consumer sciences. I had experience with teaching human development, and I worked for 4 years with pregnant and parenting teens. I though it was the perfect thing for me, and I got right on it!! I signed up for a workshop and was so excited to start!!
In the meantime, it was as though all of a sudden I was now interested in developing my own psychic abilities, learning and reading everything I could possible get my hands on!! So now, I was teaching, getting ready for a doula workshop, and developing and learning about my psychic abilities, expanding my knowledge of spirituality and metaphysics at full-speed. I just couldn't get enough - I was being guided in every way, and at times it was overwhelming I must admit!! I can honestly say I must have bought and read about 20 books (regular and audiobooks) within 2 months!! It was crazy, and I didn't really know what was going on. It was also overwhelming because I didn't tell anyone yet, and couldn't share with anyone what I was going through, and didn't even really know how I would talk to anyone about it.